mid-night

im so random~

feel to post something on my blog

that kinda long time i didnt do that too..

cuz of job, homework, outings

i had get usual to sleep late and wake late

and now i can get on my bed

and gone throw peoples blog

i kinda.. miss myself

the mabel jang that keep trying to run as far as she can to succeed her dream

but now i realise i stop

i keep myself private

away from social

izzit this what i want?

im confuse*

realizing

everyone have their own selfishness

so do i have

and i have a serious one

from previous till now

i do not know how serious i am

until now u told me that

Ya.. is true

i have to give my time to my studies, family, friends, work and my partner.

and i just have 24hrs for a day

deduct my sleeping and college time, there are just few hrs remain.

I cant focus all.. but im too greedy

i want to have all of them

i want to have a life that are not everyone have that

but there will not have perfection in this world

i failed to have the perfection life that i want

cuz human always not being satisfy

when they have the 1st one, they always hope the second one

Therefore, the selfishness beginning to start.. because when its start, u will take granted from people who always love you.

im sorry that i have took advantages from those people who love me.

i know im a person who do not deserve being pampered.

im not a robot

i can able to change my attitude become better towards you

i can give you comfort and confidence when you need it

some how i try my best to enhance our relationship

i try to become a better behalf that what i didn't sacrifice that much before

and for these long period of time

im still not being trusted

i do not know what should i do anymore..

im a human being not a robot

i have feeling to it that what you have said

i have already try my best to done my role play

but everyone have their own limit too..

is ok.. im tired to fight back.

cuz i dont want to be the only person who take it so seriously but the other dont.

alone

i just want to tell you that i miss u alot.

A day

recently i'm working for canon roadshow

but the event have ended.

before that we are normal as we are

2 days after is like omg..

red wig for 4 of us.

have a great moment with them =)

haha.. real satisfied with this work.. cuz i saw fei lun hai

actually im not really a fan of them

but after their authorgraphy

they really gave a good impress to me..

they are like damn tall..

sad case is i stand too far from them

ish.. what quite a waste..

ya... tried ninja burger =)

is so yummy and healthy..

recommended*

N is value to eat if u go with a gang of friends.

this is my set lunch ^^

a great day N a great place

haha.. here I'm

u all gonna miss me rite?

have a suggestion for u all..

a great relax place

named Levian.

at KL nearby Pavilion :)

a place special for breads

but they do sell other western food also.

And chocolate XD

spend a whole day at there

have a tea break with MACAROON

it look like colorful burgers with artificial colors

taste like biscuit

but is too sweet for me

maybe it suit elissa cuz she love sweet stuff

it look delicious ..

yummy tarts after ^^

blueberry & strawberry

and a cup of cappuccino..

dinner with thai pasta.. yum yum

N have a souvenir =)

waiting

1st time im waiting for people's call for so desperately
keep calling and calling
but no one answer
checked fb, blog, watsapp and message
but there are no updates and respond
prepared the journey for tmr but
received a reply on tmr morning
ask me go back to bed
i called back
keep calling
but there are no answer

and i realized i changed
turn to a person who knows fear.

过程

我们都知道，热恋只是一段感情的开始
热恋完了，彼此都会开始信任对方，
相信对方会了解彼此，依赖对方的忍让，包容和等等。。。
因为他知道你的在乎会包容他的一切。
慢慢就会忽略对方
可能彼此都没发现，出了状况
因为避免争吵，对方都会大事化小，小事化无。
慢慢的累积只会让彼此觉得对方变了，产生误会。
我知道维持一段感情是需要双方面的忍让和付出
但容忍可是有限，所以别让这自信把这过程毁了。

Anti social

my blog gonna rusting now!!
i just leave there like long long time ago
include facebook..
im shock that even i didnt switch on my lappy for few days
is like im so outdated
do not really knew that im lazy or lack of time
some how i just use my phone to check my mail n fb notifications only
than log out
not even being busy body at ppl's wall
or chit chat with friends..
even im like so away of my friends' blog that im usual to see them so frequent
besides, i do not hang out with friends like usually what i did.

suddenly i really out of my track..
feel that im like living by my own

i do not know what make me change?
my partner or my studies?
maybe 50 , 50
yes. compare to last sem
i really put more effort to my homework,
stay up late nights just for assignments,
work like non-stop cuz i have few assignments in a week .
and every week have new assignment for me.

previously, while im at ucsi
i always thought that study more in practical will be more fun, easy and excitement.
ya... is quite challenging to me cuz is new to me.
but is not easy at all..
is like no rest for me..
having final exam can last minute
but having practical subjects is like every work that u have done is yr exam
cuz it include marks that shows yr grades
N being not creative that i need to put more time n effort of it..
i hope the way that i have chosen is a right track..
good luck to me =)

成长

有时候真的永远当小孩
只顾吃喝玩乐，课业和睡觉。
长大了，玩的感觉没了，朋友陌生了，
感觉到社会的残酷。
小时候可以当朋友是知心
但一接触到社会，人就会变
在也不是小时候的小孩。

所以大家都越来越保护自己
变得有所保留，感情就不能像小孩那样释放和直率。

12am of 3 feb

arghhhhhh.... i wash my hair on the 1st day of cny..
hope it wont affect my luck .. cuz going to play mah jeong tmr!!

most of the people are having fun or playing fireworks but i'm rushing my assignments..
sigh*
tmr mama going to make me up at 9am sharp..
ouch... im going to look ugly on this cny!!!