maybe im to free
cuz of having study week now
last time i usually rush for studies
but this sem
i do ntg
just wait time pass
haha
maybe im bored 2 studies jo..
or something else
dunno la... i also dun feel 2 think so much
just let it be

虽然她的部落各我看了很多次，但今天看了

竟然会掉眼泪
我不是放下了吗？为什么还会哭？
因为在生气， 他们那么开心吗？

我说了

不知道为什么今天突然会跟我妈说我是同性恋
不是有话题的连接
不是她问起
不是因为想念
其实 我也不知道为什么我那么突然
一路来我都不是很想给人知道我是同性
但之从叶小姐离开我后
我好像不这么在意别人对我的看法
不会怕给别人知道我喜欢女生
更会和朋友分享我和他的过去



一直隐瞒妈的。。最后也和她说了
我和叶小姐在一起8个月了。
你在我劲看到的是小姐的。。。不是先生的。。
我每次去找的也是小姐
妈。。对不起我瞒你那么久。

blood

last nite feel some toothache
thought tooth goin 2 rote
today felt that i that my gums keep bleeding
but cant see d blood in my mouth just can keep taste d blood taste when i swallow my saliva
need 2 go for a check up if this continue

todaY
early d morning received a call by alvin
he had an accident
maybe 1 month cant use his car for 1 month
poor thing.. cant mingle around.. without a car
maybe he borrow from gay lou and etc.
after that call turn sek wan.
than boey
tell me they all outside
walao..
just finish brushing my teeth only n i still in my pyjamas
open door for them 2 come in
let them saw my morning look that without any preparation.T.T

wait for me a moment
than accompany me for lunch..
than go writting class
again... mr. cheah's class
boring

lucky day..

before that im busing assignments, midterm, presentations, reports, jobs and etc..
finally nw all are goin 2 finish soon but final is comin.. T.T

today was a lucky day.. found a good car park n meets some friends that seems long time dint meet 2gather and chit chat.
lunch at old town.. having some ladies chat_sex
haha
interesting topic.. porny*
seems like d whole old town noe we are having this topic
shy*
than back home but some of them continue class
when i go 2 my car realize that i cant make 2 reverse my car.. T.T
damn kanasai lo.. block d whole road.. luckily got a foreign guy help me 2 reversed my car in a jam of cars..
so paiseh*
N today meet kah ming infront of ucsi but d sad things is he cant see me
maybe i dint put any make up.. haha T.T
walao just finish a call from alvin..
dunno chat for hw long.. listen until my ear so pain..
luckily he said his hp low battery.. haha

art work

today junyi tak pergi school, elissa went to jusco
sudden dun feel to continue class
ask boey and meli 2 company go leisure and touch up my eye brown
omg... d shape of my eye brown look abit weired..
dunno hw 2 discribe also..
this d 1st time went there and d last time also.
haha... sudden feel 2 do my nail for coming CNY
wohoo..
haha poor little alvin is alone at kl
and he cant find any job in this period of time..
2 bad la u.. become mushroom at home la^^
after nite market with mum, feel so lazy 2 do my nail jo..
so facebooking, check mail, and see blog as usual..
til 12mid nite..
sudden hv a mood do have some art work
brought some accessory and start my painting
red + pink + white flower
wait my nails 2 dry til 3am
shot plak d...
haha^^

have a done work and i like it
hope they wont been fall off when i go to sleep..

我们虽然不完美，但爱是最完美的。

a sentence of words that shows when i open a fortune cookie this morning.
love is perfect, even when we are not..
it really means in my situation now.
maybe im really too stubborn about the pass
about now
about the anger
about the fear
about the hurt
maybe i dont have the right direction to continue my journey
but today elissa gave me that
make me realize this is not really important cuz this is just will make yrself feel unhappy forever
hating her will just make yrself more hurt
she will be hurt, but the worst is yrself
no others
why u wan 2 make yr life so miserable?
i flash back d sweet moments during our relationship
see back the cup that u gave me,the words for me, the pics that u gave me, listen your voice through the cow,smell back the sweetness from d 34 hand made red roses, cutting my nail using yr nail clipper and etc..
we really had a happy moment, a experience..
a memory that u gave me..
n i will appreciate it
experience have good n bad
and love not only have sweetness.. it still including sour, bitter and spicy
N this is journey
i will try to learn and gain more mature
not to fall so easily
maybe im really lack of experience
and thx to gave me an experience
不是我抛弃你，而是你错过我

lastly, thx for your company.. eli
love u^^

this is enough

til now u still wan 2 lie...
i really cant differentiate which is the true
or not even 1 is.
telling me d different things to me and her
i cant accept your greediness.
want 2 leave a good image to both of us..
tell me u don't like her.....
what a stupid thing that i believe
and now is really enough

dont u can think that u can share your love for 2 person
dont think that u r d only 1 to can be the greedy 1
n i wan 2 tell u
im not that kind to allow u to fooling in front of me
dont u think that u can be forgive
im not that generous

n im really disappointed that being a friend of me can out with them n being nothing of it..